Sitting, thinking..

Today I get to sit in another car shop as my car gets looked at and worked on. Emissions inspection and something strange that's happening with my ignition. I turn the key and nothing happens. It doesn't seem to be the battery so is it the starter?! or ignition wires or what? As with most of us that live in the suburban/rural areas I rely heavily on this car. I will dutifully fix it if it needs it because I cannot operate my business or go to my job without it. So I will wait here until they come to me with their opinions on what needs to be done. Then I will leave, probably broke, and get back to business.

Some thoughts have been circulating in my mind relating to 2012 and traumatic experiences and the like. The other night I had a dream that me and Stephanie lived in an apartment building a couple of floors up. We had just woke up and we opened the windows. The view was of a very distant Philadelphia with the morning Sun just breaking the clouds. As we looked we saw a strange object fall from the sky and it fell back behind the city. Then without a moments notice great big clouds of dirt raced into the sky and came at us at a tremendous speed. We tried to close the windows as if that would have helped. The dust and dirt banged against the windows and the wind howled. We huddled in the bed not sure what was going to happen next.

After a while we got up and looked outside. The sky was covered completely by the clouds of dust. People in the building were leaving to get away but for some reason we stayed thinking it would all be better soon. We said "They should turn on the electric again in a few weeks. All we have to do is ride it out."
So we stayed and collected water from the pipes and after two weeks the situation turned dire. Plenty of water but no food! So we decided to leave. And we didn't get far..... That is the end.

If I was really in this situation I always say I will drop everything and drive as far south as I can as if it is some kind of promised land that won't be effected. But the reality is I probably won't be able to do this.
So I could struggle here or struggle there. Struggle seems to be the idea either way you look at it.
Life's purpose is simply to be life. Live. The real battle is to try to stay alive. At some point most of us will face this challenge and I hope you do well.

I began my studies with the Mayan calendar some years back as an astrology tool but I liked to use the contemporary astrology. Aries, Taurus, Gemini, etc. The Mayan system didn't take hold until I started working with Aluna Joy's book The Mayan Pleiadian Cosmolgy. After a while I adjusted to really like the system. One thing I did notice was a change to my art. My doodles changed. My direction in drawing changed.

I personally see the magnitude of what is happening in the Mayan calendar and how the Mayans utilized and related the calendars to certain systems of stars and planets. We can only imagine what might happen at its conclusion.
There are some contrary calendar systems that put the end of the calendar in October 2010.
Is that too soon for you? Your last day may be today. Your own personal calendar end and judgment day.
The lesson for me has been to see this dream as a time to get my head straight. I am dreaming awake. I can still use the calendars to benefit myself and others and prepare for my day whether that is today, tomorrow or in December 2012.

A fuuny thing happened on the way to the forum.

Okay so my last post was a bit of a bummer but what great information!
Moving on into more glorious things I would love to spill a tale of a dream I recently had.
Well ..........(enter dream scape).....
I am driving in a city with large buildings all around. I come to a stoplight with other traffic in front of me and behind, and the next thing i realize is that I have been sitting in a sort of daze at this light for way way too long! I come to my senses and hear a strange humming sound , sort of rhythmic
(hmmm,hmmm,hmmm,hmmm) I look up just past the intersection and I see this huge somewhat round object floating in a parking lot area. Now I see that not only the humming but also strange lights are coming from this floating object!

I am immediatly gripped with fear and realize that this thing has been holding me hypnotized and has frozen the dream of me driving around in a city!( I can't recall what I was doing prior)

I get it together leaving the car I was in and advance forward and to the right of this double decker parking lot. The object seemed not to notice too much and kept on humming.. I manuevered to the rear of the flying orbicular object and lost sight of it for a bit but could still hear the humming.
I walked up a ramp to get to the second level where it was at and looked at the rear side of it. To my amazement I could see some numbers and writing! English! WTF!! Well this revelation freaked me out and at about this time it started to rotate towards me.
I grabed a broom and utilized it to fly really really really high. Too high actually but it seemed to be a safe distance from the object which kind of looked for me but went about its way.

The funny thing with flying in dreams utilizing an apparatus is the slight loss of speed control. And before i knew it i was far from this dream and looking down upon another one which looked good!!

A delightful dream..

In the night I behold a great delight.
I close my eyes.
And when they open I can not say,
What wonders they will show.
For with delight I find a world within my dreams,
For which it is bespoken.
Play as I may, what can I say,
I dream till morning light.
I open my eyes yet again I find you there.
My dreams are such a delight...

The great wonder

Today we dream as no one dreams. A wall of true life is coming soon. One way or another that change is coming. We place our desires here there and everywhere in the hopes of a future that will not exist. We walk and act and talk on this dream with no knowledge of the veil that is slowly lifting. Some of us may want to stay asleep right up until the light shines on our faces and beckons the dawning of this new way (day). Take heart in knowing your not alone. That all those you see around you are acting on this same stage as if it were real. Here I am playing right along with you with a light smile. We are one big family rowing our canoe on a peaceful river.I can just here the sounds of the rapids drawing close and an almost thundering sound. "We need to follow the direction of those that have come before us." My urging is not heard. "I was told there is a gentle slope in the river over to the right shore. And I worry that there is a waterfall approaching." How do I make others hear? If it depended on all life as we know it would I just go along with the stream?

I drift waiting for the answers to come.

Will I act?

Will I lead others?
Survival cannot be made alone. Not in this.